[21 Mar 2004|12:09pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | Leigh Nash "Charmed life" ] Talked to andrew and scooter today and oh wow was it a blast, i was thinking about the post sam wrote on erics site and i realized i miss read it and it was worse then i thought so i decided to email her myself. i was super nice i swear. So andrew and scooter were totally trashing her to make me fel better. she's so messed up she seriously needs to see a psychatrist, if ya'll knew the whole story about her you'd totally understand. Lately i've been in a ghetto music mood and i have no clue why. Sarah stayed the night at my house last tuesday while my parents were outta town and we had a ton of fun except we had to get up early to do our gatsby project... oh man i hate that book. well i better start doing the rest of my independent reading book project... see ya!! post comment

[28 Feb 2004|12:36am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | "suicide note" ~ Johnette Napolitano ] It's been a while but yes i've comed to realize that in the last 2 months i've had serious issues. no joke, i'm constantly sad or upset and everythings just making it work. jenny's mom died and that sucked then 2 other people in my family died. My dad was gone for 2 months pretty much only coming home on weekends for a business trip and i've been so mean to eric. I dont know why but i get so frustrated then he does something or says something and i blow up. today i threw the biggest temper tantrum i felt so bad. i get so mad or so upset that i just scream and slap arms and cry lol and i did it to eric when he got mad and told me he was taking me home. i just so want to quit people. its just sucked lately. but whatever im off to bed ~min~ post comment

[01 Feb 2004|11:37pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | switchfoot "chem 6A" ] I sewed the rest of my bag today, i made it into a pencil bag hehe. yea eric came over today and we talked about some things. he said that he loves me a lot, and sometimes he just "forgets" to say it which i guess i dont mind. Melissa and me hung out last night ... quite interesting lol. i watched the superbowl today too, i kinda hate football. my moma nd me were talking today with melissa and my mom was laughing because eric watches me sleep and i was like no he doesnt and my mom goes then when i walk in your room and he looks up while your laying on him and says shes sleeping and then he looks back down at you, whats he doin? and i go well not watching me sleep, then he admitted to me he did today and rarr... lol i dont wanna go to school tmw because i'm super pissed. the swim meet is saturday and kristina expects me to take work off which is the last day i work for 3 weeks to go and im like no fricking way especially because i took off about 3 days last term for her too so she could work out and do dance instead of takin pics which was super fricked up. i requested 2 weeks off for mid-winter break for when we go to flordia and i'm not asking for more off because she doesnt wanna take off work. so w/e she can do it herself. well i gotta find a ride in the morning becuase eric doesnt wanna take me ;-) so i need some rest.. nite nite post comment

[01 Feb 2004|12:38pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | avril lavigne "losing grip" ] Life sucks when you sit there and care about someone so much and then they let you down. why do things work out this way. All i asked was for him not to drink because its something i really hate... but he still did it... then he tried to hide me? what am i suppose to think or feel.. yea cant say i love you on the phone when your around college people but you can fucking text message your girlfriend and say you love her.. seriously! he's pulling the john trick... cant say it when your friends are around. at school he's all super sweet but when someone doesnt know about me and never will unless he says something, then i dont exsist anymore... post comment

[18 Jan 2004|11:11pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | sheryl crow "first cut is the deepest" ] I'm so excited... i couldnt figure out who this person was who imed me forever ago. today i looked at their livejournal and realized it was my "brother" matt. i was so excited when i started talking to him cause i miss him tons!!! it's been like months since i've talked to him. today was mine and erics 10 months. we were suppose to hang out and i talked to him around 4:15 and we got off the phone and he said he was coming over and i called his house like 2 times between then and 6:30 cause he never showed up and i got ahold of him and he said i never called cause it never went through his house and i dont know why but i went off.. i was crying all day lol, i'm so weird i watched the rugrats movie today its cute i just love it. :-D well i'm gonna go and finish cleanin my room... luv ya! post comment

[12 Jan 2004|12:09am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | fefe dobson "take me away" ] So yea, i went snowboarding yesterday and fell on my neck really hard and it hurt really bad. i wasn't sore except for my neck and my back where i fell but it was still fun. eric came over today which was ok. we watched densel washingtons "out of time" it was pretty good. I honestly think that eric hates going out with me now. i know that everyone tells me its not true and he tells me he's really happy but i know he's somewhat lieing. i know he's not really happy. he hides things from me. the number he had in his wallet for the longest time that he told me was the girl he works with phone number.. well its not. its some girl named amanda, it came out of his wallet today and i found it. my cousin called it and he supposably has no idea who she is. but why keep it if you never call it/dont know who it is/dont see them. i dont get it he's such a guy. I guess lauren is having a little bit of boyfriend issues too. guys are just sooooooo crazy lately. whats a girl to do :( post comment

[08 Jan 2004|12:01am] [ mood | scared ] So today sucked real bad. My boyfriend was suppose to pick me up at 9ish cause i had to go take a test for government that i missed. my alarm didnt go off so i didnt get up til he called at 9.15 saying that his water thing broke and it had leaked all over his kitchen. so i talk to him for a few min and i start getting ready when i get off the phone. when he gets to my house at like 9.50 or something i'm not done getting ready because m contacts wouldnt go in. my mom was bitching at me so i got super frustrated. so we get in the car and i drop him off at the door of our school so he wouldnt be late.. but i guess he still was late which i really dont understand but w/e. so he got mad and we got in a fight and then after 2nd hour everything was fine... well we hung out and everything and then he went to pick up his friend to take him home and went home because he was about an hour late getting home. So i guess his parents get super pissed about his tardy because he almost lost credit but my principal let it slide but they still take away his car for 2 weeks...and so he calls me and bitches me out saying its my fault and it really really hurt me cause i didnt mean to. i really didnt mean to make him late or get in trouble. so he didnt talk to me at all tonight.. well now he is a little, highly doubt that'll last long.. :-\ post comment

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